The Journey to Eternal Love – to reach the destination of love

This is my life experience, before I know what ISLAM really is. I am not writing this to show that I am a good person, but I want to give a life lesson to you all so that, you wouldn’t make the same mistake like I did.Here I want to share the story of my life. My silly life. I wasn’t like who I am today. My life before was a messy and full of flaws. I was raised by a modest economic and religious background. I’m not the daughter of an ustaz or ustazah. My parents just like ordinary Muslim. They had done their best to “cultivate” and to raise my siblings and I in a way of Islam. I still remember, when I was a small girl till I reached my teenage life, my mother would tell us (my siblings and I) the stories’ of prophets in Islam before we get to sleep or in a rainy day. She also taught us how to pray, read to us on the life of our beloved Prophet, Muhammad S.A.W and lots more stories about ISLAM. Although, my parents and my religious teachers taught me well, I wasn’t really a devoted Muslim at all. I know that Solah is the main pillar of Islam, but I took it easy. I did goods things’ and prevent myself from doing bad things just because I was afraid of my parents, but not afraid of Allah. So silly I was. Then, my teen age seems to make me turn into a worst and hectic person. I began to rebel and I even tried to challenge my parents with my antics and my stupid ignorance. When things turn upside down I was like asking my parents why I was born into this world and why had God created me? I was really a bad and terrible daughter to them. Thank to Allah, I didn’t mingle with the bad hat. I only have a few friends and they’re kind of good person. If not, I don’t know what would happen to me. Plus, I’m not living in a big city so I kind of free from doing bad things such as clubbing, drinking and etc. But, to tell you the truth, my life was disaster at that time, but still I have performed well at school. Yet, I took what Allah had given to me for granted. As I turned at the ripe age of 17, I slowly realized how messy and terrible I was. I asked my mom and my dad forgiveness . And when I have to leave them (to pursue my diploma at UniSZA, Trengganu) I realized how important they are to me. I totally agree with the saying “we tend to appreciate something when we lost it”.. Then, I made a promise to myself; I will wash away the pain that I gave to them and I’ll make them proud of me. And it turns out okay. I was given a big test by Allah in my final years at the university when I got sick and diagnosed with iron-deficiency anaemia and I easily got sick. I remembered that night, when I suddenly having a terrible headache and I totally lost my consciousness. I was sent to hospital and when I had gained my consciousness I realized that I was in hospital and my hijab was gone. At 2 in the morning I asked to go out from the hospital, that place make me sick and I miss my mom so much as I remember that when I got sick, she would always be at my side. I sent a text to my dad. And tomorrow morning my mom called. She said that she can sense and feel that something bad had happen to me and she also told me, that night she couldn’t sleep at all as she kept on thinking about me. Subhanallah, a mother’s instinct. I had to run a special blood test, plus there’s a blood clots in my brain that had caused me terrible migraine and I was told that I had to remove the blood that clotted in my brain or else I would get brain tumour. At that time, I thought that I’m going to die soon. I felt like I don’t want to do anything aside from being with my family to spend my remained time with them. Thanks to Allah, I survived.

I again, felt devastated when I didn’t get any offer to continue my study. I felt down, and depressed as my parents keep on comparing me with my sister, who got an offer letter. I then, said that it’s better for me to die rather than being a useless person like this. I began to lose hope. I lost hope in everyone, everything. I just live, aimlessly, unmotivated and I was like a body without a soul. I even had a big fight with my mother. I again had hurt her feeling as I tried to voice out my dissatisfaction (I thought that she care more about my sister and being unfair to me). I started to ignored others and living with a feeling of anger and disappointments’. Till one day, My mother and my grandmother said something to me that make me realize how lucky I am. “ Ask Allah, don’t ever lose hope in Allah, He never test his servants with the burden that HIS servants’ can’t cope with. Do you think that you are poor? There aro so many person that isn’t lucky as you are. Allah knows better. ALLAH, had provide something special for you, you just have to wait” that what they have said. I began to realize how ungrateful I am to Allah, who had given so many things to me. ALLAH, HE had given lots of chances to me. During the month of Ramadhan, I asked HIS forgiveness and I ask for HIS helps. Only Allah could help me. I’ll redha with what would happen in my life in future time. Alhamdulillah, after months of hoping and I turn out to accept my fate sincerely; my dad gave me a letter. A letter from a university (here I am now, UUM). I shed my tears of happiness and syukur to Allah. Then, a lots more surprises and nikmat from Allah I got. My best friend while diploma is my roommate. Still at my twenties, my life needs to be improved. I felt like I had lost or had missed something in my life. My heart isn’t at peace at all. I look around others life. My roommate, for example she had gone through a hard life and experiencing so much test and challenges and she still have a total believe in Allah. She taught me how beautiful and sweet feeling of devotion to Allah. By looking at how she behave, how she accept her tests in life, how she lead her life to become a good Muslimah; I realized something. I even compared myself with her. I was far from good Muslimah. I cover my aurah, I wear my hijab, I pray 5 times a day, but still I feel like I’m not good at all. I begin to question myself? I do pray, but do I really pray because I love Allah, or just want to show that I follow what Allah asked to? I cover my aurah, because I want to or because I have to? I do a good thing because I want to or to show that I am a good one? My roommate does make me realize how flawed I am. I need to find the missing puzzle in me. I think I have enough knowledge of ISLAM. I know the history of ISLAM. I read lots of religious books. I read on Jesus: the prophet of Islam, The Origin of Man, Life after death, Christian and Islam, Bible and al Quran, and I even read about the Bible but , I don’t know, what is wrong with me, but I feel like I’m not a good Muslimah at all. I have to continue my searching. I have to do and find something. I want to be as calm as my roommate. I want to be as good as her. One day, I listen to a song. Alhamdulillah, by Maher Zain. The song really fits me. I am the person in that song. I took everything for granted. I have to change, I told myself. And then I listen to other nasheed entitled “Taubat seorang hamba”. I felt something. I shivered. I cried, I asked my heart do I really want to change my way of life. Do I really, really want to become a true Muslimah, devoted my whole life to ALLAH without asking HIS rewards? I am speechless. I don’t know exactly what I want. I envy Siti Khadijah (Khadeeja-Muhammad’s wife), I envy Rabiatul Adawiyah, I’m jealous with Sumayyah, and I envy them cause I feel that I couldn’t be one of them although I really want that. I’m not strong enough to face the challenges like they were. But deep in my heart, I want to be like them. I always pray to Allah that one day I could win HIS eternal love and I made a promise to myself that I’ll improve myself from day to day. I will obey HIM voluntarily. Still, I feel like I’m full of flaws. I am a sinner. I am dirty, my heart is dirty. I need to purify my heart. I read lots of religious books, al-Quran to make me calm, my heart calm. It works. The more I read the book of revelations (al-Quran) the more my heart is at ease. Subhanallah..

Months ago, I really awakened with an album. Hafiz Hamidun’s Zikir Terapi Diri. I cried and my heart feels at ease and peace when I played those songs. I feel like I am totally not more than a small creature to ALLAH. I am nothing without HIM. I exist because ALLAH wants to. I really realize the purposes of my life. Allah had created me to make the peoples around me happy, to spread HIS peaceful messages which are ISLAM and Al Quran, and most of all to unstoppable-ly worshipped HIM. I started to discover and thinks more about ISLAM. I listen to lots more spiritual song, and I found a song that inspire me, make me strong to face the challenges and obstacle in my journey to become a truly Muslimah and in my journey to win ALLAH’s pure and eternal love, which is DESTINASI CINTA sung by a group named Mestica. I t strengthen my will. And I also found a book entitled “MEMBURU DARJAT WANITA SOLEHAH” and the book had guide me in order to become a truly Muslimah, aside from the book of truth al-Quran and Rasulullah’s sunnahs and teaching. Recently, I watch a BBC documentary on The life of Prophet Muhammad, and the documentary really had taught me and it means a lot to me in shaping who I am today. I am thankful that I was born to be a Muslim, not Christian, not Buddhist. I am thankful that I have Muslims parents, and I really thankful that ISLAM had reached me. Back on the time when Rasulullah S.AW first wahyu (or message from ALLAH to spread the religion of truth ISLAM), Rasulullah had to face so many obstacles and challenges in order to spread the religion of Islam. His life is at stake. He even threatened to death. But Rasulullah S.A.W never stops spreading the new religion. He patiently accepted whatever thing that his enemies, the Musyrikin Quraisy did to him. Rasulullah S.AW and his follower at that time having lots of difficulties to spread ISLAM and they couldn’t even built a mosque until they did their pilgrimage to Medina. Today, I am lucky. We are lucky, because we can easily build mosque, we can easily buy the al Quran from the bookstore, we can easily read about ISLAM in any means, we can easily get the religious book and we are easily to spread the ISLAM. BUT, the question is HOW QUALITY OUR ISLAM ARE? Do we really treasure the al-Quran? Do we really appreciate the Pilgrimage of Rasulullah and HIS companion? Do we, really follow HIS teaching? Do we really ready to die as what Rasulullah did in order to protect ISLAM? Do we really ready to syahid in order to fight the enemy of ISLAM? Do we???? As for me, In sha Allah..I will. And I still need to prepare myself. I still need to learn lots more thing to strengthen my relation with ALLAH. I hope that, my new me, can contribute something to this beloved religion which is ISLAM. I hope that ALLAH will grant me patient and spirit of ISTIQAMAH. In sha allah, I’ll win in my jihad. Jihad to conquer my desires (nafsu) . I hope that ALLAH will accept my good deeds and guide me as long as my heart is beating and finally I could get HIS ETERNAL LOVE…Amin.

p/s: I hope that, after you had read this entry, you’ll love ISLAM more and I really hope that my experiences can prevent you from doing the same mistakes that I did. I once lived in the life of ignorance (jahiliyah) and I wish that you wouldn’t have a life like mine. And my dear readers, remember and put your believe in ALLAH’s words, In sha Allah, you’ll find your happiness. There is not too late for us to grab HIS ETERNAL LOVE as HE is the most gracious and most Forgiven.

WARKAH BUAT HAWA..

Hawa, andai engkau masih remaja jadilah anak yang solehah buat kedua-dua ibubapamu. Andai engkau sudah bersuami jadilah isteri yang meringankan beban suamimu. Andai engkau seorang ibu didiklah anak-anakmu hingga dia tak gentar memperjuangkan Addin Allah. Hawa, andai engkau belum berkahwin jangan kau risau jodohmu. Ingatlah janji Tuhan kita bahawa “ wanita yang baik hanya untuk lelaki yang baik”. Jangan dimulakan sebuah pertemuan dengan lelaki yang bukan muhrim kerana aku khuatir dari mata jatuh ke hati, maka lahirnya senyuman tercetusnya salam dan sekaligus disusuli dengan pertemuan. Takut terlahirnya nafsu kejahatan yang menguasai diri. Hawa, lelaki yang baik tidak melihat paras rupa. Lelaki yang soleh tidak memilih wanita melaui keseksiannya. Lelaki yang warak tidak menilai keayuannya, kemanjaannya serta kemampuannya menggoncang iman lelaki. Tetapi lelaki yang baik akan menilai wanita melalui akhlaknya, peribadinya dan yang paling penting pegangan agamanya. Lelaki yang baik juga tidak menginginkan pertemuan dengan wanita yang bukan muhrimnya kerana dia takut memberi kesempatan kepada syaitan untuk menggodanya, dan lelaki yang warak juga tidak mahu bermain cinta kerana dia tahu apa matlamat dalam sebuah pertemuan antara lelaki dan wanita, yakni sebuah perkahwinan. Oleh itu Hawa, jagalah pandanganmu. Awasilah auratmu. Peliharalah akhlakmu dan kuatkanlah pendirianmu. Andai ditakdirkan memenuhi dan menyinari kekosongan jiwamu. Biarlah hanya cinta daripada kedua ibubapamu yang memberi hangatan kebahagiaan buat dirimu. Cukuplah sekadar cinta adik beradik serta keluarga yang membahagiakan dirimu. Hawa, cintailah Allah dikala susah dan senang kerana kau akan memperoleh cinta daripada insan yang mencintai Allah. Cintailah kedua-dua ibubapamu kerana kau akan memperoleh keredhaan Allah. Cintai keluargamu kerana kau tidak akan jumpa cinta yang bahagia selain ari cinta keluarga. Janganlah sesekali wahai Hawa, tangan yang mennguncang dunia juga menjadi tangan yang menggoncang iman lelaki.

where's the LOVE???

Now, I do realize that I've never been in love..truly in love with a man , I mean. If you love someone you tend to give everything without hoping that he/she will loved you back.. But I didn't feel that..Months ago, a guy had confessed his love for me and like I said before I kept on wondering if it's love or just a mere feeling of admire someone and now, I had found the answer. My heart do feel right and okay about that, but my soul doesn't feel right. I could brace myself to say that I miss him, I couldn't say that I love him and most of all things started to become puzzling and I had to say that I do care for him. My heart seems to felt sorry for him, but I couldn't brace myself to admit to him that I accepted his feeling because I care for him and I don't want to disappoint him..not because I really love and fell for him...Throughout this time, I keep on praying that I could tell him that. At first maybe I'm a little bit happy cause somebody had confessed that he loved me, but now it seems so wrong especially I knew that some persons weren't happy with us..HIS family, my family..Plus, like I said before on my previous entry, I didn't put too much hope at this matter as I'll accept what ever qada&qadr that had been written by ALLAH for me. Recently I found out that he started seeing someone else and I wasn't sad or jealous at all. In fact, I felt relieve and I'm hoping that he would love that girl and they would end up their relationship with a marriage. I also hope that the girl would love him as much as he loved her. You must be surprise right??? I don't feel hurt at all..just like I was, live heartily, enjoy my campus life at UUM...struggle with assignments and exams...At the same time I'm praying that ALLAH would send a man with knowledge and virtue to me, to complete my life and to put my heart at calm..I don't care if I had to marry a total stranger as long as my parents give their blessing to us..coz I believe that it's better to love your partner after "nikah" and I also believe that Allah had chose a right person for me. A man that will accept me for who I am..( I'M JUST A PLAIN GIRL - A PLAIN JANE ) I'll just keep on waiting patiently for that man..as in JOJO's song ~ Never been in love, cause a girl like me...Never had someone to care for, Never thought there could be someone special for me...Cause a girl like me waited patiently for someone, someone to care for me...And there will never be...

Let say, if one day, a man said that he loves me..I'll just ask him to meet my parents, ask their blessing and then we should proceed to the next step... Okayy...so that's all for today..xoxo p/s: #DearMyMrRight-I'llWaitForYou..#

Falsafah cinta Si Plato dan Socrates

Plato bertanyakan makna cinta kepada gurunya, Socrates dan beliau menjawab: “Masuklah ke dalam hutan dan ambillah satu ranting yang menurutmu paling baik. Tetapi engkau haruslah berjalan ke depan dan janganlah menoleh ke belakang. Pada saat kau sudah memutuskan pilihanmu, keluarlah dari hutan dengan ranting tersebut.” Maka masuklah Plato ke dalam hutan dan keluarlah Plato tanpa membawa sebatang ranting pun. Socrates bertanya, maka Plato pun menjawab: “Saya sebenarnya sudah mempunyai ranting yang bagus tetapi, sya berfifkir barangkali di depan saya ada ranting yang lebih baik. Tetapi setelah saya berjalan ke depan, ternyata ranting yang telah saya tinggalkan tadilah yang terbaik. Maka saya keluar dari hutan tanpa membawa apa-apa. Socrates berkata : “Itulah CINTA”. Plato kemudiannya menanyakan apakah erti perkahwinan pula. Berkata Socrates: “Sama seperti ranting tadi. Namun kali ini engkau haruslah membawa satu pohon yang engkau fikir paling baikdan bawalah keluar dari hutan.” Lalu, Plato pun masuklah ke dalam hutan dan keluar dengan membawa pohon yang tidak teralalu tinggi juga tidak terlalu rendah. Socrates bertanya mengapa begitu, maka Plato menjawab : “Saya bertemu pohon yang indah daunnya, besar batangnya, tetapi saya tidak dapat memotongnya dan pastilah saya tidak mampu membawanya keluar. Akhirnya saya tinggalkan pohon itu. Kemudian saya menjumpai pohon yang tidak terlalu buruk, tidak terlalu tinggi dan saya fikir mampu membawanya kerana mungkin saya tidak akan menemui pohon seperti ini di depan saya. Akhirnya saya pilih pohon seperti ini kerana saya yakin mampu merawatnya dan menjadikannya indah… Socrates lalu berkata : “ Itulah makna PERKAHWINAN…

La Tahzan..my fellow sisters and brothers at Plaestine..

Reading and hearing about the cruelty did by the Israelis to the Palestinians had caused me pain at heart. I felt like they are hurting me also. At the same time, I was like..angry, disappointed, and it seems like I want to go there and fight the Israelis. They don't have the right to take the holy land, cause the land belong to the Palestinians. And the world just watch, no action no justice..as if the world had been blind by the cruel actions zionist. As if the world had lost their sight and lost their power to stop that..OIC seems to be powerless. Muslims all over the world seems so powerless. We just watch them, hear their with-pain-voice but we don't do anything to help them....Come on my fellow Muslims brothers and sisters! Lets do something to help them..lets ease their pain.. If I were given an opportunity, I want to be with all of you, fighting for our beloved Islam and free our holy land from the Zionist. but right now, I couldn't help much apart from giving "doa" to all of you. Be patience..I believe that Allah had prepared something special for all of you, who had redha with his test, the biggest test ever. If I were you I wouldn't be that strong. In sha allah, one day the Zionist will pay the price for all your suffers. I want justice,coz I believe that the world now is not fair at all. Not fair enough..the international organizations like OIC, UN and many more are function-less..I believe that some day You'll live in peace one day coz you deserve that. In Sha Allah.. Dear Palestinians, I will always pray for all of you.. I always pray that you always be patient, and brave enough to fight the zionist. The Israelis some day will stop causing you pain. Yes, they will..with Allah's help..

UNIVERSITI UTARA MALAYSIA

Universiti Utara Malaysia (UUM), which was officially established on 16 February 1984, is the sixth Malaysian public university. It is the only university that was set up to specialise solely in management education from the very beginning of its establishment. The planning of the construction of this sixth university began in August 1983 when the Ministry of Education Malaysia began to give form, in earnest, to the idea of setting up this university. On 19th October 1983, the Cabinet gave its official approval for this project in Kedah. At that time, the project was called “The Sixth University Project”. Several months later, the temporary office of the sixth university, officially named Universiti Utara Malaysia (UUM), was officially opened on 15th February 1984 in Jitra.

Four months after its official opening, the UUM office was relocated to its provisional campus – the Darul Aman Campus – in Jitra, in June 1984, when the first phase of the project had been completed. The relocation was carried out so as to be able to usher in the very first batch of students for the academic year which commenced in early June 1984. The Darul Aman Campus was on a 62-acre tract of land in Bandar Darulaman. It was 18 kms north of Alor Setar and 4.8 kms from Jitra. In the meanwhile, the planning of a permanent campus for the university had already begun. This permanent campus was to be built on an area of 1,061 hectares in Sintok (in the district of Kubang Pasu), situated about 48 kms north of Alor Setar and 10 kms east of Changlun, a small town along the North-South Highway, near the Malaysia-Thai border. The permanent UUM campus, referred to as the Sintok Campus, commenced operations on 15 September 1990. Situated in a former tin mining area, it is ensconced in a valley of lush tropical forests, embraced by blue hills, and watered by two rivers that flow along the middle of the campus. The rivers, Sungai Sintok and Sungai Badak, complete the scenic beauty of the natural environment, affording a myriad vistas of verdant splendour. The MYR580 million Sintok Campus was officially opened on 17 February 2004 by the Royal Chancellor, His Royal Highness Sultan Abdul Halim Mu’adzam Shah. The main buildings of the campus are the Sultanah Bahiyah Library, the Chancellery, the Sultan Badlishah Mosque, the Mu’adzam Shah Hall, the Tan Sri Othman Hall, the Sports Complex, the Varsity Mall, the Budi Siswa building, the Convention Complex, and the buildings that house the various departments of the Academic Colleges. As a campus situated far from the madding crowd, UUM has ensured that its students do not want for adequate accommodation. At present, UUM has 15 Student Residential Halls (SRH), which, all together, house 20,000 students. The SRHs are named after Malaysian companies, institutions, and organisations of repute, namely MAS, TENAGA NASIONAL, TRADEWINDS, PETRONAS, EON, MISC, SIME DARBY, BSN, TM, PROTON, MAYBANK, YAYASAN ALBUKHARY, BANK MUAMALAT, BANK RAKYAT, and SME BANK. Apart from these, UUM also has comfortable accommodation available for visitors at the University Inn and the EDC-UUM Hotel. Mindful of the welfare and need for accommodation among its personnel, the University has built about 600 housing units of various types for a sizeable portion of its workforce. UUM has evolved into an open campus where outsiders and tourists are allowed the freedom to visit and utilise the various amenities within it. An area encompassing 107 hectares of forest has been developed into various facilities both to attract tourists to the northern region and to satisfy the recreational needs of the members of the campus community. Among these facilities are a picnic area, a nine-hole golf course, a go-kart circuit, a shooting and archery range, an equestrian site, and many others that are fast gaining popularity among tourists and the members of the campus community alike.

In January 2008, a restructuring of the university academic system was undertaken with the express purpose of preparing a strong structure that would enable the increase in the number of postgraduate students and the hoisting of the UUM flag in the international academic arena. The university sees the need to be global in practice and content since the knowledge it generates and purveys transcends and extends far beyond the borders of Malaysia. In this restructuring exercise, 13 faculties were merged and streamed into 3 main Academic Colleges, namely UUM COB (UUM College of Business), UUM CAS (UUM College of Arts and Sciences), and UUM COLGIS (UUM College of Law, Government and International Studies). This step is in line with the imperative articulated in the statements of both the Prime Minister and the Minister of Higher Education that underscored the need to increase the number of postgraduate students in the country to 100,000 by 2010. This main strategy is embedded in The National Higher Education Strategic Plan 2007-2010. To emblazon the name of UUM in the annals of academic excellence as an Eminent Management University and as a Research University in the Social Sciences, a UUM Transformation Plan was launched by the Vice-Chancellor of UUM, Professor Dato’ Dr. Mohamed Mustafa Ishak, in conjunction with his 2011 New Year’s Message on 1st January 2011 at the Mua’adzam Shah Hall. The UUM Transformation Plan, which is essentially a roadmap for the future pursuits and endeavours of UUM, is divided into two phases. Phase One, which is from 2011 till 2015, is focused on unequivocally placing UUM on the local academic map in a systematic and planned manner. During this period, greater emphasis will be given to ensuring the successful achievement of the objectives of the First Phase while, at the same time, being mindful of the imperatives of the Second Phase of the Transformation Plan, which will be from 2016 till 2020.

Subhanallah...Beautiful Sceneries at Pedu Lake.

Assalamualaikum..Just look at those pictures..Aren't they beautiful???Beautiful right? The beautiful pictures were taken at Pedu Lake or Malays called it Tasik Pedu. Want to know about Pedu lake? Okay. Let me tell ya this. Basically Pedu Lake is a man made lake located in the State of Kedah, North Malaysia. Located about 5 km from Thailand, this huge lake covers an area of 75 km².And of course my hometown near the lake. So, I've been like two times at that place. Just recently I got the opportunity to take pictures of the lake. Well, I got there with my sisters and a brother of mine plus friends. We got there by motorcycle. I definitely enjoy my time with them. Travelling and taking pictures with them..So, if you want to have a nice holiday just came here, at Pedu Lake as it offers you a lots of activities like fishing, kayaking and so many more interesting activities. Tourists also came here for backpacking and hiking. Don't worry about where you will stay while you are here...there are lots of homestay or safe places for you. Just enjoy the beautiful scenery...

POWERLESS..

As person who study international politics, I'm not really happy with the world system. Why do the US government need to interfere with the other state affairs? In Syria for example, who's fault it is? If the American didn't started to make fuss about the issue it won't turn to be that worst. The Arab spring had worsened because of the American influence. The US again 'acts' as the peacemaker, trying to promote resolution to the use of chemical weapons in killing the civilians as the counter attack to the rebellions. Plus, US wants to spread democracy idea to it's allies, president Bashar al-assad. US seems proud to violate the international law. Another violation of international law done by the United State is the secret Drone warfare launched in Pakistan and Yemen. The US government launched the drone strikes in order to keep the WEST safe cause they claimed the drone strikes is to targeted the Militant group- Al -Qaeda. But they had killed the civilians. Is killing the civilians makes US or WEST more safer? They (AMERICAN AND WESTERN)easily called the Muslims TERRORISTS just because the Muslims try to protest what they have done. They created the character of Osama bin Laden and 9/11 to promote to the world that ISLAM is the religion of terrorists. They are the real terrorists actually. They deliberately want to vanish the Muslims because they feel threatened by the Muslims. They simply labelled the Muslims as extremist group. Are they? Undeniably that there are the extremists, terrorists BUT NOT ALL MUSLIMS ARE TERRORISTS...JUST BEAR IN MIND THAT.. If I were a powerful person I would stop what US is doing right now. Interfering other states and causing problems to the world. I would not recognized US as the veto powers. I would not recognized US as the permanent member of the United Nation. But now what to do, I'm powerless. If only my little voice could be heard. I believe that there are lots more people who agree with me. I believe that there are lots more people that will stop the injustice in this world. I wouldn't blamed U.S if it didn't try to put world in chaos. WHAT SAY YOU?? I ONLY WANT TO ENSURE THE GLOBAL PEACE AND STABILITY..NOTHING MORE THAN THAT..

Dear Pemilik Tulang Rusuk Ku..

Assalamualaikum...hmm...I'm just wondering on what will happen to me in 5 years time. As a normal growing up girl, I began to think about my future imam. What kind of man will he be. I always pray to Allah that HE will give me a good/soleh man. I want a good man to become my imam. I'm not really a good muslimah, so I need someone who can guide me. I'm the one who easily turn my life upside down when I'm really sad and disappoint with my life. I want a good companion to correct me when I'm wrong. But...I always tell myself that "Ya Nur Asmaa..If you want a good man as your husband, don't look for them but make you yourself a good muslimah..then you'll get a soleh husband.." Yes.. I believe that Allah will give me a good man if I'm a good muslimah..no need for me to look for them but I must prepare myself to be a good muslimah...Insyaallah.. I don't really care about man's handsome face. I don't really care about their physical appearances as long as he is soleh ( as me my self's just a typical girl )..Well...my parents asked me whether I have a special boy-friend or not..and I was like..NO...cause I hate the "couple thing". They asked me cause they already worried about me. They think that I'M old enough to not having a boy-friend..HELLO, I'm just 22 years old o.k...And guess what, my mum said that she already had my sister (ANGAH) at my age...waaa...I asked them why they asked me bout that thing and they told me " most of your school friends are getting married this year and we wonder when you'll get married.." Nah, that's the problem. I told them, jodoh kan Allah yg tentukan...Allah had decided for me..when and who Allah knows...And they said 'Yes my dear daughter, tapi awak kena la jugak cari..berkawan..." To make them stop I said 'Insyaallah, the time will come'.... It's not like I don't have boy friends..but I just be friend with them..not more than that..I want to give my heart to the man that deserved it. A man that have the right to own me..my heart and soul. That's the only special thing that I have to offer to him once he had become my husband. I don't want to ruin it. I'll protect it..( although I sometimes admiring handsome guys )I want a halal relationship, not the "boy-friend-girl-friend type" relationship. It's better love after nikah..insyaallah, we will get HIS barakah... So....dear my Mister Right, I'll wait for you..Insyaallah. If you love me, come and meet my parents..

MY UNEXPECTED LOVE

Peoples say " The best love story is when u fall in love with the most unexpected person at the most unexpected time"..Yes it definitely true. An unexpected person which is a guy that I've known for so long had confessed his love to me. Wow, I'm speechless at that moment. I even asked him since when? and guess what, he fell for me years ago. Okay, as for me I do happy when he is around. He always makes me laugh by telling me his jokes. But as a girl who never fall in love and as a girl who inexperienced in lovey-dovey things aside from admiring handsome guys, I don't know whether this is that thing called love or not.. But surely, my heart keep telling me that I like him too. And I appreciated his love for me. I admire him because I think he is brave enough to confess his love for me.But tell you what, we are not couple. We are not boyfriend-girlfriend type relationship. I don't want that. I just want a typical friend-like relationship, not until we had a halal relationship.Enough if we talking and advising each other .And although now we are facing a biggest test and challenge in our relationship I'll still keep on praying to Allah that we can be together some day, Amiin..If we cannot be together I'll accept the Qada and Qadr with an open heart as me myself believe that Allah had prepared something special for me and I'll never forget that..Insyaallah. As for the time being I'll keep on praying that "THEIR" hearts will be opened and accept us and we will live happily ever after and our love last till Jannah..

SUMAYYAH..SRIKANDI PILIHAN..

Sumayyah binti Khayyath, syahidah pertama umat Islam yang menumpahkan darahnya demi mempertahankan keimanannya bersama suami dan anak lelakinya. Teladan istimewa yang wajar dikenang sepanjang zaman. Sumayyah binti Khayyath adalah seorang hamba sahaya milik Abu Hudzaifah bin Al-Mughirah. Oleh tuannya, ia dikahwinkan dengan seorang lelaki asal Yaman yang bernama Yasir bin Amir yang merupakan perantau di kota Makkah. Kerana banyak mendapat halangan, Yasir meminta perlindungan kepada Abu Hudzaifah yang merupakan kepala suku Bani Makhzum. Hasil perkahwinannya dengan Yasir bin Amir, Sumayyah dikurniai anak lelaki yang diberi nama Ammar bin Yasir. Melalui anak lelakinya inilah, pasangan Yasir dan Sumayyah mengenali agama Islam. Suatu hari, Ammar yang mula menginjak usia remaja mendengar khabar tentang kedatangan nabi baru yang membawa ajaran Tuhan. la pun segera mencari dan ingin membuktikan khabar tersebut. Sebaik sahaja mengenali Rasulullah s.a.w., Ammar pun terus jatuh hati dan langsung mengucapkan ikrar syahadatnya. Mendapat khabar gembira, Ammar segera menceritakan kepada ayah bundanya. Berbeza dengan kebanyakan orang Quraisy yang anti bahkan memusuhi Islam, Yasir dan Sumayyah justeru menyambut gembira khabar gembira ini. Bahkan mereka kemudian mengikuti jejak Ammar untuk bersyahadat dan menjadi Muslim dan Muslimah. Keislamanan yang awalnya disembunyikan akhirnya diketahui juga. Mendengar cerita bahawa keluargaYassir ini memeluk agama Islam menimbulkan kemarahan Abu Hudzaifah. la memaksa supaya keluarga ini meninggalkan Islam dan kembali kepada agama nenek moyang mereka yang menyembah latta dan uzza. Namun ketiganya berkeras mempertahankan keyakinan mereka. Seperti yang dialami oleh golongan awal yang memeluk Islam, Yasir, Sumayyah, dan Ammar mengalami banyak sekali halangan dan cubaan. Hal ini ditambah lagi kerana status keluarga mereka yang bukan daripada kalangan bangsawan Quraisy. Akibatnya penderitaan yang mereka alami keterlaluan dan mereka diseksa dengan kejam melampaui batasan kemanusiaan. Orang yang paling kejam menyeksa mereka adalah orang-orang yang selama ini melindunginya iaitu daripada kalangan Bani Makhzum yang dipimpin Abu Hudzaifah. Sumayyah yang merupakan seorang wanita, dihumban ke atas pasir, lalu tubuhnya ditimbus dengan pasir yang sangat panas. Seakan belum puas hati, dada Sumayyah kemudiannya dihimpit dengan batu besar supaya ia tidak dapat bernafas. Lalu mereka memaks Sumayyah untuk mengimani berhala-berhala nenek moyang mereka. Namun wanita solehah ini tetap bertahan dengan keyakinannya kerana ingat janji Allah SWT bagi hamba-Nya yang bertakwa, iaitu syurga. Yasir, Sumayyah, dan Ammar terus mendapatkan seksaan yang sedemikian keji. Mereka didera, dicambuk, disalib di padang pasir yang terik, ditindih dengan batu panas, dibakar dengan besi panas, bahkan sampai ditenggelamkan ke dalam air hingga sesak nafasnya dan mengelupas kulitnya yang penuh dengan luka. Suatu hari ketika Ammar sudah tidak mampu untuk menanggung penyeksaan, ia kemudian mengadu pada Rasulullah s.a.w. mengenai keadaannya. Rasul yang setiap hari datang memberikan sokongan lantas berseru, "Sabarlah, wahai keluarga Yasir. Tempatyang dijanjikan bagi kalian adalah syurga." Sekalipun berat seksaan yang diterima, namun ketiganya tetap mempertahankan keislamannya. Ketika berada dalam keadaan sedar, tidak ada satu pun kalimat yang teriontar dari mulut ketiganya kecuali kalimat "Ahad..Ahad.." seperti yang dilontarkan Bilal bin Rabah. Hal ini semakin meningkatkan amarah orang Quraisy kerana gagal melunturkan keimanan mereka. Hingga suatu ketika, orang Quraisy berasa putus asa dengan keteguhan iman ketiganya, mereka memutuskan membunuh Sumayyah. Adalah Abu Jahal yang melaksanakan perbuatan keji tersebut. Dengan tombaknya yang runcing, Abu Jahal menjadikan Sumayyah mujahidah pertama yang gugur di jalan Allah apabila tombak tersebut menembusi dada Sumayyah. Menjelang wafatnya, tidak sedetik pun Sumayyah menggadaikan keimanannya. Sumayyah binti Khayyath simbol ketabahan hati, kekuatan iman, dan ketangguhan jiwa seorang mujahidah. la rela mengorbankan segala-galanya, termasukjiwa dan raganya demi Islam. Sumayyah binti Khayyath syahid dengan meninggalkan teladan yang luar biasa. Tidak hairan ia menjadi wanita yang sangat mulia dengan keberanian dan ketabahannya. "Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan (sahaja) mengatakan: "Kami telah beriman" sedang mereka tidak diuji lagi?" (Surah Al Ankabut, ayat 2).

ZINNIRAH..SRIKANDI MUSLIM..

Zinnirah adalah seorang gadis yang berasal dari Rome. Kehidupan keluarganya sangat miskin dan dalam keadaan serba kekurangan. Ketika berlaku satu peperangan besar di Rome, Zinnirah terpisah daripada keluarganya lalu menjadi tawanan perang. Sejak itu dia dijual sebagai hamba dan sering bertukar tangan. Sepanjang menjadi hamba abdi, Zinnirah dilayan dengan kasar dan adakalanya diperlakukan seperti binatang oleh tuannya. Suatu hari Zinnirah berkenalan dengan seorang hamba yang senasib dengannya. Perkenalan itu akhirnya membawa Nur Islam dalam diri Zinnirah kerana hamba itu menerangkan ajaran yang disampaikan oleh Rasulullah. Penerangan yang tulus itu membuka hati Zinnirah untuk memeluk Islam. Namun, dia terpaksa melakukan ibadat secara rahsia kerana tuannya memusuhi Islam. Nasibnya lebih malang apabila dia bertukar tangan kepada bangsawan Quraisy yang sangat berpengaruh masa itu, Umar Al-Khattab. Ketika itu, Umar belum memeluk Islam dan juga tidak mengetahui keIslaman Zinnirah. Umar yang sangat memusuhi Rasulullah terkenal dengan bengis dan kasarnya sehingga digeruni, baik lawan maupun kawan. Akhirnya, Umar mengetahui mengenai keIslaman Zinnirah apabila suatu hari dia mendengar gadis itu membaca al-Quran. Ini menimbulkan kemarahan Umar yang mahu menghukumnya dengan siksaan berat. "Tahukah kamu apa hukuman yang layak untukmu?" Tanya Umar keras dengan wajah bak singa sambil mengheret Zinnirah ke tengah padang pasir. Di situ, Umar mengikat khaki dan tangan Zinnirah dan menjemurnya di tengah panas terik. "Inilah caranya supaya kamu insaf," katanya lalu meninggalkan Zinnirah di situ. Walaupun mukanya perit dipanah matahari dan kehausan, Zinnirah tabah menghadapi penderitaan itu sambil mulutnya tidak berhenti membisikkan Allah.. Allah... Apabila melihat hamba abdinya belum insaf, Umar menyeretnya ke pinggir kota dan mengikatnya di tiang. Dia menyuruh orang mengorek mata Zinnirah sehingga buta. Walaupun darah bercucuran daripada matanya dan dia diejek oleh orang kafir Quraisy yang percaya dia dilaknat tuhan Latta dan Uzza, iman Zinnirah tidak luntur malah mampu berkata, "Sekalipun aku dibunuh, kepercayaanku masih tetap pada Allah yang Esa." Penderitaannya itu akhirnya sampai ke pengetahuan Abu Bakar as-Siddiq yang membeli Zinnirah dengan harga tinggi. Sejak itu, dia tekun beribadat dan dengan kurnia Allah, kedua-dua matanya yang buta itu bercahaya semula. Peristiwa yang mengagumkan ini menyebabkan ramai orang Quraisy memeluk Islam.

SULAIMAN AND BALQIS LOVE STORY

I've read this story once in a story book, where it foretold most stories about wives of the Prophet (Chosen ones) and their life. In this story is the love story between Prince Sulaiman and his wife Princess Balqis. I remembered roughly of the story and how it begin, but I will try my best in remembering it again. This is a true story, happened on this very Earth sometime in the very distant past. The story started when Allah have granted Prophet to Sulaiman, whom was a noble King. One of his gift, was to be able to speak the language of animals, and also able to command humans alike as well as jinns. He has commanded them to find rare pearls in the deepest oceans, giving out treasures not known to man, built buildings that is unable to be imaginable by a human thoughts, travels distances in matter of seconds. This is the gift from Allah to him, and Prophet Sulaiman is a very humble servant of Allah taala. One particular day, there was a certain bird called Hoopoe whom went lost in one evening after given a task by Prophet Sulaiman to find a source of water, and then had to report in to Prophet Sulaiman, the Hoopoe has been wondering in some place and have seen some things, the Hoopoe was scared that he will be punished by Prophet Sulaiman for not following the orders of Sulaiman and flying circled around in his throne. Animals sometimes does this showing their regret when doing a mistakes to their master. Prophet Sulaiman asked on why he was late, and told that Hoope that he will be punished, unless he gives a valid reason. In panic, the Hoope remembered something (in which as I understood, Allah have given a thought to the Hoopoe) and told Prophet Sulaiman, the Hoopoe said "Prophet Sulaiman, do not punish me.. because I will tell you something of your interest." In the Hoopoe's defense, Prophet Sulaiman is willing to hear the Hoopoe's defense, and the Hoopoe said that in a distant civilization there is a princess that is so beautiful with a strength in army and numbers in people, but their beliefs are praying to the sun, which in Prophet Sulaiman's view is a sign of people whom have not seen the akidah (true way of life). Listening so, the Prophet said that the Hoopoe is lucky because this piece of information caught his interest and he wanted to deliberate her and her people by marrying with her. Prophet Sulaiman wrote a letter, puts the letter on the bird and told the bird to send this letter to Princess Balqis. Upon some time, when the letter has reached the attention of Princess Balqis, as she opened the letter as it read.. "In the name of Allah, the most loving and caring, this letter is from me Sulaiman. Do not ever be arrogant towards me or even considered yourself more than me. Come to me in a peaceful surrenderance" She consulted her ministers for advice, and as they are negotiating, they have come to a final decision and replied with a messenger, a man from her civilization was sent as a scout with gold and silvers (seen as a gift / tribute) to see Prophet Sulaiman and the reply said "We have come to give you this token of tribute, if we ever cross any lines." as Prophet Sulaiman replied "That what Allah have gave to me is far better than what He has gave to you, but you feel that you are better with your 'gift'. Return young man to your civilization, and we will come to you with an army in which you will never survive fighting it, and everyone will be sent away from that country of yours (Saba) and will become prisoners that has of no value." In fear, the young man quickly get onto his horse and return back home. While the counsil were discussing with each other, many of the military officers were backfired and wanted to attack, they said to Princess Balqis that their armies were seen strong enough to fight Prophet Sulaiman. Here is where Balqis show her inteligence, and said to them that a peaceful approach must be found. She then told her counsil of her wishes to see Prophet Sulaiman herself, which opens up many questions to the counsil people. In the end, the elders of the counsil agreed to her wishes, granted that she brings a small army along with her. Upon leaving her country, Prophet Sulaiman was instantly informed by the creatures of the winds and he was also preparing himself to receive the visit by the Princess. Hence he commands the people, animals and Jinns to form an army, lined up well to show his apparent power given by Allah to the princess. When the princess is halfway there, Prophet Sulaiman asked his most cunning creatures on weather they can do a hard task for him, the first one whom answered was the Ifreet Jinn, and he said "Before you even stand up from your throne, I will bring you whatever you wish." Ifreet being the most smartest among the Jinns, agreed to the task. Prophet Sulaiman wants to take Princess Balqis physical castle, and place it beside his. In this event, a man of the books whom stood beside Prophet Sulaiman interrupted and said, "Oh Prophet Sulaiman, I can do such a task in just a blink of an eye" hence that man is one whom is with knowledge. Prophet Sulaiman said to that man to fulfill his wishes, and as he read a few words, the castle where Princess Balqis lives now resides beside Prophet Sulaiman's Castle. (In my opinion, the man with knowleadge is one whom studies the old books, gifted also by Allah a certain knowleadge which is high in level) When the princess arrived, Prophet Sulaiman greeted her and accompany her to her own castle which he said was his on purpose. When she looked at it, it feels like she knows this castle arhitecture, and when she enters the castle it feels like dejavu, and looking confused back to Prophet Sulaiman. The prophet said, "Is it not like your castle?" The princess replied, "Yes it is.. similar like my castle" but she knows inside it is definitely her castle. Even as her emotions were filled with fear and confusement at that moment understanding that man, prophet Sulaiman. Then as they walked around the castle, He then asked gently to visit his own true castle. As Princess Balqis went inside, she seen that it is very-very beautiful because it is made out pure glass. As she wanted to step in, she sees like a pool of water, and held up her skirt until her beautiful legs can be seen by prophet Sulaiman. Then when she stepped on the water, it is not water, but actually glass. Prophet Sulaiman said to her "this castle is slippery which is made out of glass".. and Princess Balqis among other thing felt ashamed of herself as she has shown a part of her to Prophet Sulaiman, "My God, I have made a grave mistake upon myself, and I now surrender myself to you Sulaiman and to Allah, the creator of this Universe", she felt very vulnuerable that almost like crying, but Prophet Sulaiman was a kind man towards her, and gently held her hands while forgiving her. Prophet Sulaiman then tells her of his interest in marrying such a woman like her, and she accepted the offer as she was amazed by prophet Sulaiman's ways. When their marriage started is when both civilization were joined up together, and their old beliefs is now embraced with Islam, the true way of life, beliving in the One supereme creator Allah taala. Princess Balqis, is half Jinn, whereby her father was a human being and her mother is a Jinn. She has the beauty of her mother. This is some of the few many stories in Islam history, written in the Quran and al-hadis.

YUSUF AND ZULAIKHA

From the story of Yusuf and Zulaikha we learn what part beauty plays in the world of love. Yusuf was the youngest son of Jacob, the seer, who was blest with the gift of prophecy as were several among his ancestors. He was thrown into a well by his elder brothers, who were jealous of his beauty and the influence that it had on their father and everyone that met him. 'Not love alone, but beauty also has to pay its forfeit.' Some merchants traveling that way saw Yusuf in the well as they were drawing water, and took him up and sold him as a slave to a chief of Misr, who, charmed by the beautiful manner of this youth, made him his personal attendant. Zulaikha, the wife of this chief, grew fonder every day of this handsome youth. She talked to him, she played with him, she admired him, and she raised him in her eyes from a slave to a king. 'Those crowned with beauty are always kings, even if they are in rags or sold as slaves.' 'A true king is always a king, with or without a throne.' The friends and relations of Zulaikha began to tell tales about her having fallen in love with Yusuf, and, as it is natural for people to take interest in the faults of others, it eventually put Zulaikha in a difficult position. She once invited all her relations and friends, and put into the hands of each of them a lemon and a knife, and told them all to cut the lemons when she should tell them, and then called Yusuf. When he came she told them to cut the lemons, but the eyes of everyone among them were so attracted by the appearance of Yusuf, that many instead of cutting the lemon cut their fingers, thereby stamping on their fingers also the love of Yusuf. 'Beauty takes away from the lover the consciousness of self.' Zulaikha, so entirely won by Yusuf, forgot in the love of him what is right, what is wrong. 'Reason falls when love rises.' They became more intimate every day until a spell of passion came and separated them. When the shadow of passion fell upon the soul of Yusuf, Zulaikha happened to think of covering the face of the idol, which was in her room. This astonished Yusuf and made him ask her, 'What doest thou?' She said, 'I cover the face of my god that seeth us with his eyes full of wrath.' This startled Yusuf. He was the vision of his father pointing his finger towards heaven. Yusuf said, 'Stay, O Zulaikha, of what hast thou put me in mind! The eyes of thy god can be covered with a piece of cloth, but the eyes of my God cannot be covered. He seeth me wherever I am.' 'He is man who remembers God in anger and fears God in passion,' says Zafar. Zulaikha, blinded by the overwhelming darkness of passion, would not desist, and when he still refused, her passion turned into wrath. She hated him and cursed him and reminded him of his low position as a slave. On this he began to leave the room, and she caught him by the nape of the neck and thus Yusuf's garment was torn. The chief happened to enter the room during this. He was amazed at this sight, which neither Zulaikha nor Yusuf could hide. Before he asked her anything she complained to him, in order to hide her evident fault, that Yusuf had made an attempt to lay hands upon her, which naturally enraged the chief, and he at once gave orders that Yusuf should be taken to prison for life. 'The righteous have more trials in life than the unrighteous.' Prison was a delight to the truthful Yusuf, who had kept his torch alight through the darkness of passion while walking in the path of love. It was not long before the spell upon Zulaikha faded, and then came a settled melancholy. There was no end to her sorrow and repentance. 'Love dies in passion, and is again born of passion.' Years passed, and the pain of Zulaikha's heart consumed her flesh and blood. She wasted away. On one side was the love of Yusuf, on the other side the constant trouble that her guilty conscience caused her and the idea that her own beloved had been thrown into prison on her account, which almost took her life away. Time, which changes all things, changed the conditions of Yusuf's life. Though he was in prison he had never blamed Zulaikha, by reason of her love, but he became every day more deeply immersed in the thought of her and yet remained firm in his principle, which is the sign of the godly. He was loved and liked by those in the prison, and he interpreted their dreams whenever they asked him. Yusuf's presence made the prison heaven for the prisoners. But Zulaikha, after the death of her husband, fell into still greater misery. After many years it happened that Pharaoh dreamed a dream which greatly startled and alarmed him. Among all the soothsayers and magicians in the land there was none who could interpret his dream. Then he was told by his servants of Yusuf and his wonderful gift of interpreting dreams. He sent for Yusuf, who after having been told Pharaoh's dream gave the interpretation of it, and by his wise counsel he greatly relieved the King in his cares. Pharaoh made him chief over all his treasures, and bestowed on him honor and power that raised him in the eyes of the world. 'Verily the truth at last is victorious.' Then his brothers came to Yusuf, and afterwards his father Jacob, who was released from the years of pain that he had suffered through his love of Yusuf. 'The reward of love never fails the lover.' Once Yusuf, riding with his retinue, happened to pass by the place where Zulaikha in her utter misery was spending her days. On hearing the sound of horses' hoofs many people ran to see the company passing, and all called out, 'It is Yusuf, Yusuf!' On hearing this, Zulaikha desired to look at him once again. When Yusuf saw her he did not recognize her, but he halted, seeing that some woman wished to speak with him. He was moved to see a person in such misery, and asked her, 'What desirest thou of me?' She said, 'Zulaikha has still the same desire, O Yusuf, and it will continue here and in the hereafter. I have desired thee, and thee alone I will desire.' Yusuf became very convinced of her constant love, and was moved by her state of misery. He kissed her on the forehead, and took her in his arms and prayed to God. The prayer of the prophet and the appeal of long-continued love attracted the blessing of God, and Zulaikha regained her youth and beauty. Yusuf said to Zulaikha, 'From this day thou becomest my beloved queen.' They were then married and lived in happiness. 'Verily God hearkens attentively to the cry of every wretched heart. '

I LIKE HIM..

assalamualaikum.. It's just a feeling of a typical-grown up-girl. I like a guy. I don't know why I like him, so don't ask me why. It happens, just like that. When I saw him I felt like I want to see him more and more. But, I'm not the type of silly girl who tend to approach the guy they like. It’s okay, If I just look at him. It's something that I embarrassed to admit, I like him. Is it wrong for me to like someone?? O Allah, I do like him! I saw him on my orientation week in UUM, Northern University of Malaysia. I saw him and then I look at him, again and again..And, on the last day of the orientation week I kept on seeing him, secretly. I don't know why I like to watch him. Maybe, because of his look, his smile and his eyes. I just like him in his way. Till one night, my best friend a.k.a my roommate asked me. "Do you like the senior that we met on the orientation week?"..and I was like, " how do you now bout that? ..She just said, "I know la...the way you looked at him, like He's someone special. You looked at him like you'd fall for him..OK, that's an embarrassing fact to admit. She knew that I like him. She added that, she can detect that by just looking at the way I looked at him. I even ignored her while I secretly looking at him.. O God, what had happened to me??? As a girl with pride, I'll just look at him from far. I'll strain myself from telling him that I like him, although I always excited when I saw him..To me It's just a feeling of admiring someone, not more than that..Allah had prepared someone for me. So don't worry, Asmaa. be patient to give your heart to that man that destined to be with you...BY ME... a silly girl who had like a guy...

I luv Prophet Muhammad.

This is dedicated to the beloved Prophet Muhammad.. YOU CAME TO ME.. You came to me in that hour of need When I was so lost, so lonely You came to me took my breath away Showed me the right way, the way to lead You filled my heart with love Showed me the light above Now all I want Is to be with you You are my one true love Taught me to never judge Now all I want Is to be with you Sal 'ala Sayideena Mustafa 'Alaa Habeebika Nabieeka Mustafa (O God! Send Your Blessings upon our leader, the chosen one (Muhammad (peace upon him)) Upon Your Beloved, Your Prophet, the chosen one) You came to me in a time of despair I called on you, you were there Without You what would my life mean? To not know the unseen, the worlds between For you I'd sacrifice For you I'd give my life Anything, just to be with you I feel so lost at times By all the hurt and lies Now all I want Is to be with you Showed right from wrong Taught me to be strong Need you more than ever Ya Rasul ALLAH (O Messenger of God (Muhammad (peace be upon him)) You came to me In that hour of need Need you more than ever Ya Rasul ALLAH You filled my heart with love Showed me the light above Now all I want is to be with you You are my one true love Taught me to never judge Now all I want Is to be with you

Atika Bt Zayd's Love Story

Atika was the daughter of Zaid bin Amr bin Naufal. Zaid was the uncle of the Umar. Atika was thus a cousin of Umar. At Madina, Atika was married to Abdullah the son of Abu Bakr. Atika was very beautiful and Abdullah was much enamoured of her. He was so much lost in her love that he failed to participate in the various expeditions undertaken by the Muslims. He even neglected to offer his prayers in the mosque. The love of Abdullah and Atika became proverbial. Abdullah felt that Atika was the most valuable thing in the world. When Abu Bakr came to know that Abdullah had not taken part in the various expeditions and had even neglected his prayers, he put him to explanation. He had no explanation to offer. The matter of fact position was that he was so much overwhelmed by the love of Atika that he could not attend to other duties. Abu Bakr gave vent to anger and told his son in plain words that his failings and shortcomings were too grave to be passed over. Abdullah placed himself at the mercy of his father, and Abu Bakr decreed that Abdullah should divorce Atika within three days. Abdullah was torn between two minds. At times he thought that he should be faithful to his love. On second thought he felt that the command of his father should be obeyed whatever the cost. After three days Abdullah divorced Atika. This decision made Abdullah deranged. He would neither eat nor drink. He sobbed and sighed and sang heart rending verses giving expression to his great grief over the loss of his beloved. The divorce of Atika became the matter of talk in Medina. When the Holy Prophet came to know of the matter, he felt sympathy for Abdullah. The Holy Prophet revoked the divorce, and the two lovers were reunited. Abdullah was very particular thereafter to ensure that the love for Atika did not stand in the way of his duty to God. In all the campaigns that were undertaken by the Holy Prophet thereafter, Abdullah took part therein, and fought valiantly. In the battle of Taif, Abdullah was wounded, and later he died of such wounds at Madina. Atika bitterly mourned th death of Abdullah, and in a touching elegy she said: "Abdullah I have sworn that my eyes Shall not cease grieving over thee; And my body shall ever remain,Covered with dust." Atika resolved that after Abduliah she would not marry any one. She kept her resolve for four or five years. Umar felt for her. He felt distressed that one so young and beautiful should remain a widow. Umar advised her that she shauld marry. When Umar became the Caliph, he himself offered to marry. After some hesitation, Atika accepted the proposal. After the consummation of the marriage, when Umar held the marrige feast, Ali congratulated Umar, and sought his permission to talk to the bride. Umar permitted and Ali reminded Atika of her resolve not to marry any one after Abdullah. Thereupon Atika burst into weeping. Umar consolingly said: "Atika do not be grieved. All women do like that. May God bless you. By re-marriage yau have conformed to the injunctions of Islam." Of Umar, Atika had a son "Ayaz".

THINKING BOUT FUTURE..

I can speak English, Malay and Spanish, I can do fashion sketching, I can read and teach English, I can sing and I can write poems. There are more things that I can do. I studied Diploma in Teaching English and then enrolled Bachelor of International Affairs Management with honours. I learn about the world of politics. And I took part in politics. What I am going to do in future? A piece of me want to be a Language teacher/lecturer. Other, fashion designer, writer and politician. My grand father want me to take part in politics. He even insisted that next five years, I would be participated in the election. He wants me to be like my father, who became one of the important person in a political party. what I am going to do about that??? I cannot simply getting involve in the wold of politics without knowing much more about it. So I'll work harder in studying politics. And what happen to my fashion-sketching-ability??? I'm not going to waste it. I am going to design and design even though I'm busy, and Insyaallah I want to come up with my own fashion line in future. What about my writing skill?? hmmnn...I can write books on politics, education, language learning, and life. novels maybe. Insyaallah...what about my dreams of having a cake house, having my own brand of shoes, and many more..what i'm going to be and do in my future??? WHAT EVER WILL HAPPEN WITH MY FUTURE I'LL LET ALLAH DECIDE IT FOR ME..BUT, I'LL LEARN MORE AND I WOULD NEVER GIVE UP IN THE SEARCHING FOR KNOWLEDGE JOURNEY..

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.. Islam is my religion and I'm proud to be a Muslim. To me Islam is the only religion that can shape me to be a better person. I believe that if we follow exactly everything that stated in the Holy Quran and sunnah we can achieved a good life a better future in the hereafter. Islam means peace and safe. If we follow all the teachings by our beloved Prophet Muhammad S.A.W, Insyaallah your life will be great and you'll find the serenity and peace. If you believe in ALLAH, you'll never getting into misery and worry about anything. Never lose hope in ALLAH. As for me, I was like give up on my fate months ago as I didn't get any offers to pursue my study. My mum and my grandma always keep telling me that, I need to pray to Allah and Insyaallah, HE will give you a way..and then, I put my believe in ALLAH and I asked HIM a chance for me to pursue my study with an intention to seek the knowledge and get the benefits of it to help my fellow muslim men and women. I believed that ALLAH had prepared something special for me and I just need to be patient and keep on praying to him. Alhamdulillah, HE answered my doa. HE had give a chance to me. HE had provided something special to me. I got the course that I once interested to take since I was in secondary school. I also got my best friend as my roommate!! Subhanallah..HE never neglect me as I sometimes forget HIM. ALLAH gives me so many opportunities in my life although sometimes I was like leaving HIM.. Astaghfirullah, What i've done? Ya Allah you are so close to me when I felt like I've been far from you...So as the moral of the story, my fellow readers...ALWAYS PUT YOUR BELIVE INTO ALLAH...INSYAALAH, HE WILL HEAR YOUR LITTLE VOICE..wassalam..

POLITICS AND ME...

Hmmmmnn...I love the political science subject..I want to learn about the world of politics. My lecturer once told me that its important to learn this because it is concern with our life and future. The reason I love to learn about politics also because others can't monopolize or fool me around as I can always read about their action. I mean, by study the political science others can't fool you about the political activities that happen around you. In political science one of the best quote is "NEVER GETTING ANGRY AT THE FACTS"..its my favourite quote when I happened to be talking about politics. My father involved in the politics formally. He is one of the important person in one of the political party in Malaysia. By looking at how he always talking and doing things that concerns with his party I am the one who always pay attention to him..And then, I shared what I've learn in class with him. Recently, in the Malaysian 13th General Election, I also have participate in the political process in Malaysia by casting a vote..I voted for Better Nation cause I love this country so damn much. I don't want my country to become like the countries which always in war, and unstable. Malaysia have been in peace for about 55 years and I don't want it to be changed. I have followed my dad went for political talks during the election campaign period..there's the pictures that I snapped.. As a political science student, I think that there is no need for us to changed what have been perfect. My lecturer, DR KNOCKS TAPIWA ZENGENI, who came from Zimbabwe always telling us Malaysians that we are lucky to live in Malaysia, a harmonious country who the peoples can live together in multi-racial society. My classmates from Nigeria,Somalia, Uzbekistan and Yemen also said that I am lucky to be a Malaysian. I agree with that. I feel that we Malaysian are lucky because we don't need to worry about getting into serious national problem such as starvation,involve in wars and etc. Like Tun Dr Mahathir said, our country is a democratic country cause we run the simple general election and we practice parliamentary democracy which is different from US democracy. Tun also said that, there is no need for us to immitate others democracy. I also agree with what he had stated. We have lived under the parliamentary democracy for years and nothing wrong with it. Its undeniably that our government have it fallacies or flaws, but we can repair it and try to make it into the right way..