where's the LOVE???

Now, I do realize that I've never been in love..truly in love with a man , I mean. If you love someone you tend to give everything without hoping that he/she will loved you back.. But I didn't feel that..Months ago, a guy had confessed his love for me and like I said before I kept on wondering if it's love or just a mere feeling of admire someone and now, I had found the answer. My heart do feel right and okay about that, but my soul doesn't feel right. I could brace myself to say that I miss him, I couldn't say that I love him and most of all things started to become puzzling and I had to say that I do care for him. My heart seems to felt sorry for him, but I couldn't brace myself to admit to him that I accepted his feeling because I care for him and I don't want to disappoint him..not because I really love and fell for him...Throughout this time, I keep on praying that I could tell him that. At first maybe I'm a little bit happy cause somebody had confessed that he loved me, but now it seems so wrong especially I knew that some persons weren't happy with us..HIS family, my family..Plus, like I said before on my previous entry, I didn't put too much hope at this matter as I'll accept what ever qada&qadr that had been written by ALLAH for me. Recently I found out that he started seeing someone else and I wasn't sad or jealous at all. In fact, I felt relieve and I'm hoping that he would love that girl and they would end up their relationship with a marriage. I also hope that the girl would love him as much as he loved her. You must be surprise right??? I don't feel hurt at all..just like I was, live heartily, enjoy my campus life at UUM...struggle with assignments and exams...At the same time I'm praying that ALLAH would send a man with knowledge and virtue to me, to complete my life and to put my heart at calm..I don't care if I had to marry a total stranger as long as my parents give their blessing to us..coz I believe that it's better to love your partner after "nikah" and I also believe that Allah had chose a right person for me. A man that will accept me for who I am..( I'M JUST A PLAIN GIRL - A PLAIN JANE ) I'll just keep on waiting patiently for that man..as in JOJO's song ~ Never been in love, cause a girl like me...Never had someone to care for, Never thought there could be someone special for me...Cause a girl like me waited patiently for someone, someone to care for me...And there will never be...

Let say, if one day, a man said that he loves me..I'll just ask him to meet my parents, ask their blessing and then we should proceed to the next step... Okayy...so that's all for today..xoxo p/s: #DearMyMrRight-I'llWaitForYou..#