Dear Pemilik Tulang Rusuk Ku..

Assalamualaikum...hmm...I'm just wondering on what will happen to me in 5 years time. As a normal growing up girl, I began to think about my future imam. What kind of man will he be. I always pray to Allah that HE will give me a good/soleh man. I want a good man to become my imam. I'm not really a good muslimah, so I need someone who can guide me. I'm the one who easily turn my life upside down when I'm really sad and disappoint with my life. I want a good companion to correct me when I'm wrong. But...I always tell myself that "Ya Nur Asmaa..If you want a good man as your husband, don't look for them but make you yourself a good muslimah..then you'll get a soleh husband.." Yes.. I believe that Allah will give me a good man if I'm a good muslimah..no need for me to look for them but I must prepare myself to be a good muslimah...Insyaallah.. I don't really care about man's handsome face. I don't really care about their physical appearances as long as he is soleh ( as me my self's just a typical girl )..Well...my parents asked me whether I have a special boy-friend or not..and I was like..NO...cause I hate the "couple thing". They asked me cause they already worried about me. They think that I'M old enough to not having a boy-friend..HELLO, I'm just 22 years old o.k...And guess what, my mum said that she already had my sister (ANGAH) at my age...waaa...I asked them why they asked me bout that thing and they told me " most of your school friends are getting married this year and we wonder when you'll get married.." Nah, that's the problem. I told them, jodoh kan Allah yg tentukan...Allah had decided for me..when and who Allah knows...And they said 'Yes my dear daughter, tapi awak kena la jugak cari..berkawan..." To make them stop I said 'Insyaallah, the time will come'.... It's not like I don't have boy friends..but I just be friend with them..not more than that..I want to give my heart to the man that deserved it. A man that have the right to own me..my heart and soul. That's the only special thing that I have to offer to him once he had become my husband. I don't want to ruin it. I'll protect it..( although I sometimes admiring handsome guys )I want a halal relationship, not the "boy-friend-girl-friend type" relationship. It's better love after nikah..insyaallah, we will get HIS barakah... So....dear my Mister Right, I'll wait for you..Insyaallah. If you love me, come and meet my parents..